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You know I feel locked out of everything. Like I don't fit. I've tried to fit in with the anime crowd, but they are usually too fansex to stand for a long period and the smart ones don't really want to get to know you.
I tried the furry thing, but I'm not enough of the furry mentality. I don't get off on furry art, it's just the odd dragon picture or such that I like. I've been really big into dragons for a while now.
The macro/micro thing is out because it's usually all males seeking females and the male art is too "realistic" for me. I prefer a more anime taste in my images. So that rules me down to a sliver of a group.
Also everybody seems to have a mate or boyfriend and I don't, so that rules me out of that group.

Also, I'm reading people on my LJ that..I thought were my friends, but haven't spoken to me in ...about a year really because THEY are part of a totally different group that what I'm into and thus they shun me and toss me aside for them.

My RL friends just aren't friendly anymore, they seem to just be paying me lipservice.

With my life as it is now, I don't know what to do....

Die and bury myself